As the saying goes, “All good things must come to an end.” A week ago I ended a relationship of three years and while it was an extremely difficult decision to make, I knew it was the right thing to do. My significant other and I no longer walked along the same path in life nor did we provide each other with the things we needed to continue to nourish the relationship. For months I fought the idea that our relationship ran its course and that we finished helping each other learn the lessons our time together brought up. It was painful to realize and admit to myself that we no longer had a place in each others’ lives. We still love and care about each other, but we were living separate lives for months and the distance wasn’t helping us keep the chemistry going.
This situation gave me some insight into what my ex went through when he broke up with me years ago. It doesn’t by any means excuse the behavior he engaged in prior to the dissolution, but it does explain a lot. I learned from my ex’s mistakes and handled this break, which dignity and respect. It is important to think about how you’re going to make the other person feel. Yes, they’re going to be hurt by your actions, but it is better for the person to know the truth and be let down gently than to be lied to and led to believe they did nothing wrong. Some people try to spare other people’s feelings by saying, “It’s not you, it’s me” when they know damn well that’s a lie. I would rather be honest and also take responsibility for the things I did wrong in the relationship. This will demonstrate to the person that I don’t fully blame them for the things that went wrong and that I acknowledge my own mistakes. When it comes to love and ending relationships it’s better to be tactful about it because you never know what your actions can do to others and it’s important to remember to treat others how you would like to be treated.
Mentally I created a list of pros and cons about the relationship and after I was done I gave myself a deadline by which I would come to a conclusion about the relationship. I used my mindfulness skills the most afterwards because I knew that the interpersonal skills got me to where I needed to be but ultimately the decision would come from the clarity that only wise mind can bring me. I observed the situation I was in, described it to myself and ultimately participated fully in it to see if this relationship was something that was hindering me or working with me. At times I strayed because I continued to focus on the other person’s feelings and like I mentioned already it’s important to be respectful. The thing I needed to figure out was how to manage maintaining my self-respect and being respectful as well. These two ideas aren’t as incongruent as some people make it seem.
It came down to holding a non-judgmental stance when observing, describing and participating in my thought process and deciding how to handle this break up. I could drive myself crazy by thinking about all the negative things that can come out of the conversation without arriving at a decision and sticking by it. I knew I had a habit of doing this hence setting a deadline of May 13th and lucky for me I didn’t need to deadline. I boldly, bravely decided to do what was best for me and this person. Sometimes we’re only meant to be with each other for a stretch of time then move on and that’s okay. Let’s embrace the coming and goings of people from our lives regardless of how small or large a role they play in helping us achieve enlightenment and self-awareness.
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